I’ve spoken about anxiety before on my blog yet I feel as though it’s something that needs to be discussed more. There is still a large stigma around anxiety and, as so many people suffer from it, it’s an issue that needs to be addressed. Anxiety is horrible to live with and it’s extremely draining to have to deal with it on a daily basis.
I tend to spiral. I let my anxiety take control of my mind, and find myself worrying about everything and anything. I often find it difficult to leave the house when I get into this negative mindset, spending my time shut up in my room as opposed to going out and socialising with my friends. I had a massive panic attack last night that lasted until about 2am, though luckily my little sister was on hand and stayed on the phone with me until I fell asleep. I’m lucky in the sense that I have a really strong support system when it comes to anxiety, my friends and family are always there for me if I need them and it’s something I’m really appreciative of.
I’m trying my best to figure out what triggers my anxiety because, right now, it appears to appear at the most random times. During work, in the middle of the night, when I’m out with my friends…I can’t get my head around it in all honesty. I’m coming up with little ways to calm myself down when I start to feel anxious, for instance, taking a walk with a close friend never fails to cheer me up. I love grabbing my camera and going for a nice walk around town or down nature trails. The fresh air does me good.
My anxiety has improved so much from what it used to be. I used to constantly be in a state of panic, losing my happy personality and becoming a person who was always feeling low. I have a lot more control over it than what I used to and, although I know I still have a long way to go in terms of battling anxiety, I’m proud of myself. I surround myself with positive energy and take time to appreciate the little things in life, like a good cup of tea paired with a few cheeky biscuits.
I’ve spoken to multiple doctors over the space of about seven years, finding that they aren’t as helpful as I’d want them to be. The only advice I’ve ever been given is to go on medication. Medication is something that I don’t wish to use as, having been on it before, I don’t like the effects it has on me as a person. I’d rather deal with my anxiety in a healthier way and I’d expect my doctor to guide me and support me in that. I’m thinking of referring myself to talking therapy, as I’ve heard this is extremely helpful for people suffering from anxiety.
Let me know what you think below and feel free to share any tips on how you deal with anxiety.